Dear Depression

I know you’ve stalked me for quite some time. The first two years I was able to avoid you. But now, you’re here. And you’ve been here for a while a now. You seem to be the only one to stick around when literally everyone else in my life has left. It’s just you and me.

But thats the thing, I would rather be alone than be stuck with you. You make me hate myself. You are the controlling abusive boyfriend I never had; and was never able to have because of you. You took away my confidence, my heart, and my self. You pushed away all of the people who loved me, until they gave up on me; and that made you stronger. You make me want to die. You make me a bad person. I feel nothing and everything around you, all at the same time. You make the days go by so slowly and so painful. You make me question my existence. You make me hate all of the things I use to love. You make me fail, at everything. School is so hard with you around. I cant sleep because you’re always nagging. Dragging you around is like carrying the weight of the world.

Why can’t you leave me alone? Why can’t you pick on someone your own size?… Because I know you are much bigger and stronger than me, and eventually you will overthrow me. And until that day, I will keep fighting.

My dear depression, leave me alone. Forever.